have u ever had a meal by yourself, all alone, seated with an empty chair opposite you, in a proper restaurant where other people/ couples are sharing a meal together? does the thought seem daunting?

it's funny how the waitresses and servers are a tiny bit more flustered when you hold up a finger to indicate a table for one. do we really have to over-analyse everything and peer closely at all the possible connotations and consequences?

can't i do something because you asked and i had nothing to do? can't i ask you because i know you have nothing to do, and will agree? but somehow this seems like how a lot of shit happens. haha

those things i'm looking for are not in you. it would be disappointing if i had any expectations to begin with.